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Saturday, October 8th, 2005

Time:10:45 am.
it's 10:45 in the morning. usually i'd be at work on a saturday. it's raining. i haven't seen my brother in hours. he's missing. shhhhhh. i have to attend a tattoo party this afternoon at mi casa. lots of people to entertain and my day feels BLAH. stiffin' up, right?

i can hear this slight buzzing noise. i couldn't begin to tell you where it's coming from all that i know is the constant droning sound in my ears.

i just sneezed everywhere. ew. the orange cat just started licking my black cats ears. <3 aw. i think they're buddies. there's a basket full of apples. strangly enough there's 3 different kinds. [note: i don't know how that's "strange"] 2 red - 3 yellow - 2 green. Yup.

i couldn't sleep worth shit last night. it was just one of them nights where i was tossing and turning. drunk. sprawled out on a couch. with traffic keeping me awake. ha. that's what i like to call hell. cause when you can't sleep- - -

aw. the orange cat is cleaning the black kitty. how lovely.

so i can get a tattoo today if i want one. ha. still haven't decided. but no fear because no thought has went into it either. see, if i was deeply contemplating it - then the situation may be a little ify, but no thoughts no cry. yano m'an?

maybe i should find something better to do with my time. but only if i wasn't so fascinated with each [L][E][T][T][E][R] coming up on the screen as random ass thoughts are jogging through my brain. ha. and i say jogging because if i used "running" it would seem too fast.

my hairs getting longer. groooowing. it's wonderful. i cop't some other bizzznatches hurr do. it's hawt. anyways.

how is it that i feel so mesmerized right know. peaceful. i feel like i'm just waiting. patiently waiting. ha.
as my fucking brother walks through the door!!!!

mother fucker.

i gotta go.
i was waiting.
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Thursday, August 11th, 2005

Subject:so what's the word for putting things off? i don't know how to spell it. <3
Time:1:44 am.
Mood: cheerful.
i must say that i'm addicted to 711s (seven eleven, for those of us that cannot comprehend numbers) Slurpees. So good.

i think that i wanted to type. ha, or maybe i just wanted to type.. what i meant to say was talk. maybe i just want to talk.

i'm comfortable. have you ever been comfortable. it's a great feeling. i could describe to you what my comfort is - but it wouldn't be the same to you. comfort is probably something we all feel a little differently. maybe just a little bit. [no, not like "fitty"].

i've been running around. working. running around. and maybe i didn't say getting up and doing things every two seconds. ha. lately i've been living out of my car [not literally]. paying bills. having a very tiny amount of sex [if we can even call it that]. but does it matter with who? NO. don't think about it. it's a mystery. oh, but doesn't that make you mad? NO. it doesn't.

moving on.

711s Slurpees are great. and it might be just because i get to pull the big white nob - after viewing my many selections of flavors [not to mention that you can actually add even MORE flavor with a squirty thing]. or maybe its the way that the ginormous Slurpee cup fills up with this ice cold foam that tastes so wonderful. it may just be the experience i have walking in to the store to purchase my Slurpee. or perhaps the Iraqi man that sits behind the counter, Nodding his head and asking in his voice "You smoke reef?" after purchasing a pack of Zig Zags(c) and pouring my Slurpee, only to select a MATCHING straw to my delight. Whatever the fuck it is that makes my brain waves trigger to buy a Slurpee anytime of anyday is just a wonderful thing. And I'm happy.
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Sunday, April 24th, 2005

Subject:a tiny word(s) of advice
Time:1:24 am.
"just remember - if an old guy offers you a drugged up drink..he's paying!"
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Friday, April 22nd, 2005

Time:12:43 pm.
i love every single one of you with a different part of me <3
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Monday, April 11th, 2005

Time:12:16 am.
Mood: complacent.
and yet the world still turns.
days in and days out things will never change.
sometimes its not the world that needs to be fixed - it's you.

it all starts with believing.
a "series of un-fortunate events" will unfold before you, d a i l y.
it rains on wedding days, because that same day is another mans funeral.
life can't satisfy everyone all the time.
you have to satisfy yourself.

a circle can be drawn without meaning..scribbled.
our lives can be lived without meaning..scribbled.
the only meaning you'll ever find - is the one you've known all along.
things won't ever change, because we always change.
therefore even if "things change" we have to "change" to adapt to that situation.

cycles are forever born, and broken.
live and let live.
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Thursday, February 17th, 2005

Time:5:18 pm.
you had me at every word.
sick like a starved child, i convinced myself that you were life.
endless nights where i would lay naked waiting for you in your bed, only at your grace.
the words that you would say to me, as they crept through your mouth and with only a whisper wrench my already broken heart, once again, once again.
i felt like a derranged pyscho path - tempted to murder myself by pressing a dagger through my chest, cutting myself open at the heart to bleed.
oh, the way that you "loved" me.
oh how i was so beautfiul, yet we only made love in the darkness of your basement shower to hide our bodies, to hide mine.
you made me feel like a queen.
ah, a queen i was..furnished with inracite designs; pieced together little by little inside my mind
oh, your manipulating fiction.
i loved nothing but the way that you hated me.
you grasped every moment where i would beg for attention, beg for your love, beg for the press of your lips against mine for even just a second.
sweet child-like nicknames or that of a drug.
you made everything else in my life so much harder to love.
surrounding me with your bitterness, your fears and anger.
threats to take my life as we made love with your hands gracefully around my neck - laughing with the power that you had over my mind and body.
I relied on you to inflict pain i was so used to it.
oh how i loved you only when i hated me.
i was already dead and you were my grave.
fuck you.
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Sunday, January 30th, 2005

Time:10:53 am.
Gas Money To Boston: 5 Dollars.

Three 40 OZ's of Beer: 7 Dollars.

Riding The Green Line To Copley Square: 90 Cents

Walking Around Boston For The Night, Drunk, With The BEST People Ever: Priceless.
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Tuesday, January 25th, 2005

Time:11:14 pm.
i'll always do what i can, you'll always be special to me.
<3
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Monday, January 10th, 2005

Time:11:38 pm.
it only gets harder the more that we know
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Sunday, January 9th, 2005

Time:4:16 pm.
if only the world were flat, and people round.
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Saturday, January 8th, 2005

Time:7:56 pm.
i wanna build a snow woman and marry her <3
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Friday, January 7th, 2005

Time:5:02 pm.
think about it..

what's the most public place you've ever masturbated?
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Thursday, January 6th, 2005

Time:11:19 am.
Not everyone wins at monopoly <3
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Wednesday, January 5th, 2005

Time:10:03 am.
here today gone tomorrow
here today gone today

surround yourself with things in life that will make you happy, wouldn't it suck to die doing something that made you miserable?
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Tuesday, January 4th, 2005

Time:10:59 pm.
i'm going to be okay.
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Sunday, January 2nd, 2005

Time:12:44 pm.
New Year.

New Place To Live.

New Job.

New Friends and Environment.

New Chances and Opportunities.

New Outlook on Life.

New Life.

Wishing you A Happy, Whatever is new to you.
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Thursday, November 25th, 2004

Subject:Couple Things To Say..
Time:8:05 pm.
Too





MUCH





Turkey.
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Friday, May 28th, 2004

Time:1:14 am.
Mood: content.
"The truth is, you could slit my throat, and with my one last gasping breath I'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt"

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Saturday, May 22nd, 2004

Time:10:20 am.
Mood: cheerful.
kAra10124: can we have a garden?
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+19783942237: Yeah wicked funny im workin in the garden have been all day n ive been thinkin about u workin in the garden with me
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kAra10124: i'm so excited now. that just made my day
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Tuesday, May 18th, 2004

Time:7:09 am.
i wanna know how CHAZ is doing?
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